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the first few days of the reborn are most critical, the joy it brings may lead him back to the troubles which initially pulled him to the hole. one should avoid these suspending threats by keeping his mind clear, enjoyments of rebirth limited /under control. Though, it is hard to give the exact recipe for staying on the safe side. Probably the reborn should not write and shout out his joy either, but i can't help but shout it out, when after weeks of mental cramps, i can ''feel'' hope/love/'that i am alive'/joy, looking into the pink lights of the neons of "reserve-square", falling into the pavement across the street. What does it stand for really, this light of (night lights of) the past, does not really matter. (naturally built symbol of many similar times/feels/moments.)

.......................... maybe i really shouldn't write it out.. i m already falling, sliding down, almost nothing to hold on back in the gap with slippery sides. but how i am not afraid of small things tonight. celebrateable. pointless god of small things for a night. city l/m/nights.